that's not the end!!

how 2 start?? ermmm..ukeyh..aq mule kenal cinta ketika aq berusia 15 tahun..laki pertama yg jahanam 2 dumped me sebelum smpat cple hnye 3 bulan..his cheated on me..da adew gf tp kata na break..k..finally gf dye yg mntak break..jantan nie punye bd0h suh i p pretend jdi kakak dye n tell dat gurl about him yg ta bole hd0p tnpe gurl 2..OMG!! aq dipermenkah?? ukey tape let it be..second person yg muncul..him..da bez ex i ever had..usie perkenalan 2 tahun..i was cheated on him with a guy who studied at Japan..k..lastly..he managed 2 accept me back n i was really thankful..jdi kami jalankan khdupan kami seperti biase..n kdng2 gdo..gdo sal cmburu..sal laki..sal topup..finally clash..tp..sumpah aq ckp..lepas kejadian aq curang nan dye..aq setia sgt nan dya walupun baik nan jntan2 kat FB 2..most gdo sal topup la..aq taw aq salah kat citu..ermmm..lame pas 2..he was cheated on me twice..firsly i accept it..but secondly i try 2 accept n he pomiz 2 break wif dat gurl..nanti punye nanti..he broke up wif 2 of us in a tyme..k..i was really stress..n before sume nie jdi..i telan sabun cost serabot nan SPM n love towards him..i was fainted n was admitted at da hospital for 2 days..n finally..we have no connection till my bez frenz meet me wif other guy..lets begin wif gonto..gonto berumur 19 tahun dis year..sekolah maahad tarbiah al-ansar kat selangor..dye baik..ta bpe hnsome sgt..but agame nye bgos..kwn punye kwn pas 2 ta kwn da..my ex dtg balik..pas 2 da cple balik sme my ex..i wat perangai nan memalukan dye kat kwn2 dye n nmpak dye terlalu mnje nan huda..k..then i called him..i text him..but there was no respond..son] i teros mntak putus n tade gak respond from him..so dalam tmpoh break nie..there was a guy whose name is daus call me n texting wif me until we became a cple..2 weeks after dat..my ex dtg balik n it was 2 days before i go 2 LA..he called me..n sembang punye sembang he said he loved me..OMG!! i loved him 2..but i tanak kasi harapan..i ckap na kwn je nan dye sampai kwen nt..tp..i told him dat i dun want him to hope frm me cz i surely will make him dissapointed..dekat FB..i terlalu baek nan sowang laki nie name zach..but i've no feelings towards him..n daus..i have no feelings towards him 2..k..my ex was really upset n dumped me again..selama tmpoh nie..mcm2 num KL msok..k..satu nie i kenal..am..syamel..syamel nie taw i cple nan daus n taw i semua ttg daus..dye jugak gtaw sal gonto yg da lame cple nan mwar tp na men2 kan aq..i was really dissaponted..sume na men kan perasaan aq..bd0h!! tp syamel nie dok putar2 belit citer kowt sbb last text dye anta" nisha sye terima awak seadanye" kat citu i taw da dye mmg na putar belit cita..so lantak kau la..k..skrg sal mirol lak..dye mntak cple nan aq..dye bek..swit..n kat PLKN..agamenye mmg kuat..good..tp..aq ta b0le..maafkan i ye mirol..tp we still frenz n tiap2 minggu dye contct aq..lau aq tade credit dye share kredit..huk3..daus lak..aq tade kredit dye yg asyik d0k topup..am lak..kol ckp mnje2..mne la kak ct ta mara..ng0k nye am..huhuhu..arif lak..selalu wc..pas 2 ckp sal seks cm ngeng!! bdoh tol..blah la kau..jemil lak kwn aus..col gtaw da break n suh criw tmn kat dya..adeh!! jemil2..kau break pun ko eppy..apa da.betol ckp daus..ko mmg eppy go lucky nye org..eg..dm..dm lak cm ngeng!! katak aq gelar dye..sume org dye na mara..mamamk jual roti canai pun ko na bising..ng0k nye..tp,,kelakar adew ko..huk3..sume nie kwn2 dak selangor..sume kwn daus..k stop about all dis..skrng yg contct aq..zach...daus...mirol..tp..eg, dm,jemil..sat2 ja sbb depa kwn2 yg memahami..k skrng..aq tapi..bpe minggu agi..aq akan pegi dri hd0p korunk..aq tana ada papew da ngn korunk..aq tana korunk kenal aqa sebagai nisha yg baek..tp nisha yg kejam...pas nie korunk takan taw dah sal aq..aq akn kuar dari hdop korunk..aq na bersendirian..aq da penat n da malu kena cop sebagai pompuan murahan yg kemarok jantan oleh ex aq sndiri..walau pun dye ta ckp cm 2..tp..aq taw apew isi ati dye..as for me..khalil adlah cinta pertama dan terakhir aq walaupun aq bek nan jnatans..dye ta pernah akan aq lupekan..mmaf ye alen..i jaat n kejam nan u..pengajaran2...i pomia 2 myself..aq akan berubah..jadi seorng yg lebey baek dan bertnggungjwb...kalau anda faham hati dan perasaan saya...sbnrnye..bole jadi gila..As'salam...

wat is happening!!!

huhuhuhu..ape dalam otak aq eh?? cple single cple single..ati perasaan..org..diri sndiri..bosan bosan bosan..bla bla bla...ng0k nye...aaaaaaaiiiiiiiishhhh!! cner na mula ek..ntahla..serab0t pale otak nie eh..dulu aq cmna..skrng aq cmna?? b0ng0k la kau ni..hahaha..shhhhhhhhhhh!! sowang sowang dtg..aq dah 18..bnyk bnda dtg..cinta cinta cnta!!sejak pas abeh SPM..aq bnyk kenali laki.FB la..salah num la..aq suke kwn..kwn itu seronok..tp..aq salah gune..kwn2 terlebey kwn..ngeng!! aq na kwn bukan harap leby..ta sngke lak adew yg berharap..OMG!! YA ALLAH..ape nie..apew aq wat nie..aq da ta larat la cmnie..sowang2 aq sakiti..ape bnda..manusia ka setan kau ni..boley ta jadi org nisha...adoi!! account fb da tutup..pabenda nya..tutup bnyk kali da..dok sama ja..gila!! laki sana laki cnie..tp ta dok jumpa2..bazir kredit ja sha oiii!! awat la jdi cmnie weih!! apew kene nan nisha yg bek..yg lembut..yg ta suka cri gdo nan org n ta reti sal cnta..apew kau ni...dah ckop kau telan sabon..sewel teros ka..ka na cuba kelaq tgn?? try tg0k apa jadi..hdop ke mampoih!! aiishhhhhhhh!! 10syen..dulu kena men nan laki..skrng kau men kan laki..pas nie?? kau maen2..laki laki laki..apa na jadi nt nie..mak org ka..bekas org ka.anak setan ka..ibu tunggl ka..lahir anak luar nikah ka..ntahla..woii!! apa mepek nie...aq nga kut0k diri sndiri la bd0h!!SUBHANALLAH...ape la na jadi nie..TOLONG!!! setan apa d0k bertenggek eih!! aq ada pak da mak..depa bek..awat la unk nie..from now on..cmner aq na lari dri sume org..aq tana sapa pun cri aq...aq na sndirian nan hdop aq..single..blaja..berjaya..bersuami..berkejaya..huhuhuhu...aq na jadi pensyarah..na berjaya..aq blur...huhuhu..maafla kat suma..aq jaat la..otak aq da rosak!! aq sakit!! aq na berubah..tolong aq...tolong bagi smngt..aq na setia pada yg satu...aq tamau men2 perasaan org..ambik kau nisha ..dapat pangkat.." ta payah dok men banyak laki sgt..ta cukop2 ke??" tamparan hebat buat aq..playgurl!! mana maruah aq?? mana?? sampai mati akn ku igt kata itu..sampai mati!!hahahaha...aq na nges lah..nisha kau jaat la bangang!!sume org benci kau...booooooooooooooo..bd0h!! kemarok sgt na jantan..amek la kau..dapat dah!! NIsha2..org bnci kau..bnci bnci...terime kasih!!
dis is my last blog..=)
maaf sume...as'salam...